Emptiness:
These poems are taken from two pages of my long (256-page) poem
"Blank Pages", most of which consists of longer poems
on that theme, but it includes a few pages of haiku. I give you
the sequence without interruption, then follow them with the same
sequence, interrupted with annotations.
Stop listening
to rain on the roof.
The blank page.
Yes, those pictures
are still on that wall.
The blank page.
Whatever is in
the refrigerator...still
the blank page.
The rain has stopped.
You've seen sunshine before.
The blank page.
Write something. OK,
the letter "T". Now what?
Maybe an "h". An "e"?
I've said "the" before.
This page is no good now.
Start a blank one.
The blank page.
The blank page.
The blank page.
Car noise. An airplane.
No bird sound, not even crows.
A blank page.
The blank page.
A voice leaps out.
Mind ripples.
A long open sound
(aaaahhhh) starts to itch for
a consonant.
Muted rustle
of consonants. I wonder what
the next page is saying?
It begins with
writing a number on me.
Here come the words.
First opened, I was
a blank daze; now my daze
is numbered.
July night. We must
write on it in light --
photo-graphy.
Fireworks! Fire
plays. Then ash trails on darkness --
invisible ink.
Fireworks over,
a few fireflies, unawed,
blink on...off...on...
After fireworks,
fire flies -- my words
in your mind?
I was blank, but
I could feel. Who said my daze
was numb, erred.
Dog-ears, paper clips --
your scribbles make me a place
to be marked.
Someday all this space
will be filled with poetry --
mark my words.
Words? You want words
from me? What a nice surprise!
I don't know what to say...
I become nothing,
but the people on TV
Keep talking.
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Here are the same poems again, but interrupted by a few annotations:
The first four poems deal with typical distractions that draw
the would-be writer's attention away from the blank page he needs
to fill with words.
Stop listening
to rain on the roof.
The blank page.
Yes, those pictures
are still on that wall.
The blank page.
Whatever is in
the refrigerator...still
the blank page.
The rain has stopped.
You've seen sunshine before.
The blank page.
The next two poems deal with an attempt to "trick"
the blank page - a trick that fails.
Write something. OK,
the letter "T". Now what?
Maybe an "h". An "e"?
I've said "the" before.
This page is no good now.
Start a blank one.
The blank page.
The blank page.
The blank page.
That is, what else is there to be said about a blank page? (A
great deal, actually.)
Car noise. An airplane.
No bird sound, not even crows.
A blank page.
More distractions? Or more subjects for poetry?
The blank page.
A voice leaps out.
Mind ripples.
Alludes to Basho's poem: "The old pond./A frog jumps in./Water
sound." Usually considered the first haiku and also taken to
represent a moment of satori (Basho was a Zen monk). Blankness is
a theme of much Zen literature. This, however, is not Zen literature.
A long open sound
(aaaahhhh) starts to itch for
a consonant.
Muted rustle
of consonants. I wonder what
the next page is saying?
This could be the page on which I labor wondering
what's on the next page. And perhaps the next page doesn't know
what it's going to say yet.
It begins with
writing a number on me.
Here come the words.
Now it is definitely the page speaking. Though if you write
a number on me - I mean the body of Dean Blehert, not the computer
screen you are viewing - I might throw some words at you.
First opened, I was
a blank daze; now my daze
is numbered.
Yes, a pun - horrors! "Numbered" because I put a page
number on the previously blank page.
July night. We must
write on it in light --
photo-graphy.
Another emptiness (or semblance of it), the night sky just before
the fireworks begin.
Fireworks! Fire
plays. Then ash trails on darkness --
invisible ink.
Fireworks over,
a few fireflies, unawed,
blink on...off...on...
After fireworks,
fire flies -- my words
in your mind?
I was blank, but
I could feel. Who said my daze
was numb, erred.
The pun expanded. The point is not entirely silly: When a blankness
is a potential for creation, it's a readiness, and it perceives
vividly.
Dog-ears, paper clips --
your scribbles make me a place
to be marked.
Once pages lose their blankness (or innocence), they are quickly
worn down, used by the writer and, perhaps, many readers.
Someday all this space
will be filled with poetry --
mark my words.
Carrying on the "mark" theme and parodying the typical
"Someday there will be a great city here" speech.
Words? You want words
from me? What a nice surprise!
I don't know what to say...
False modesty and, for those who knew him, a tribute to an old
poet friend of mine who was superlative at false modesty, who said
"What a nice surprise!" without evincing the slightest
surprise, and who prefaced endless rolling eloquence with "I
don't know what to say...".
I become nothing,
but the people on TV
Keep talking.
The endless, 24/7 chatter on TV seems to promise a continuity
that transcends one's own life or life itself. One can easily imagine
the earth empty of life, but it is harder to imagine that on that
lifeless planet there is no TV programming to be found, that nowhere
in the blasted landscape a TV host says to a non-existent audience,
"It's good to be here with you tonight." But also, "I
become nothing" has a less sinister implication, not an absence
of life, but a presence of something (someone) that isn't any thing,
only a potential for limitless creation of worlds.
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